Careless, selfish and proud.

 

One of my biggest flaws, is that I get attached very easily, and I care way too much. 

It's a big issue that I face in real life. Not that it is a bad thing all the time, it shows that I appreciate you and I care about you. 

But sometimes, caring too much is detrimental to my mental health. 

Let me fill you in with a simple situation I've had during my school year (one of the MANY situations i've encountered)  : 

One time, a person started showing affection towards me, being very nice, hanging out with me, complimenting my style, my hair, laughing around, texting me, and it was a very weird situation, as never someone in my friend group showed me that much attention. 

Within a night, that person became very important to me. I got attached within hours. 

Eventually, that person started distancing themselves, our long talks became short, they obviously found other people to hangout with, and it made me feel like I was a little matter of days, just to get them distracted. 

I felt quite bad. I over thought it. It drained my energy. It made me sad. I thought that person appreciated  me for who I was, and genuinely wanted to become besties, you know ? 

But I guess, going through  uncomfortable situations like this is what makes you stronger, and learn lessons, even though  it's a very bitter way. 

I learned that, nothing, and no one lasts. You need to learn how to get attached to the right ones, and the ones who truly deserve it, like your family members. Family is not always blood. But family relies  on strong pillars  that are very difficult to crumble, and they rarely crumble. 

If you want inner peace and if you want to stop overthinking, be selfish. Selfish is a word that is often used in negative contexts, but in this one, it is good for you. Put yourself  first, be secure about who you are, trust your soul, because if you don't like yourself  and trust yourself and respect yourself, no one will. 

And stop caring so much for every stranger or friend that shows you attention. If that thing don't last you'll get hurt.

 Speaking from experience here. 

One day they cherish you, next day they treat you  like a stranger. Brush it off your shoulder and hold  your head high, give them a taste of their own medicine. 

Be careless.  Stop overthinking.  Be selfish.